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How do you react when you're stressed?
Submitted by Deep Thinker
How do I react when I am under stress? It takes a very long time for me to react. My initial reaction when confronted with a stressful situation is to do the Nurse Betty thing, I am clothes in quietness and the dress was given to me by Theodore Melbourne Wigle. I shut down completely as if I am in a state of shock. I do not speak even when spoken to and provide no incite nor answer nor reason for a person to hit me. I hid myself behind things or in things like Shirley Jane Temple in This is just a little Ditty and in Nurse Betty...in the closet.
A lot of people don't know that the director of the soap opera in Nurse Betty was Natalie Wood. And, the actor playing George playing David had really proposed to Nurse Betty in the sixties. They went to the same university that is before his friends decided to call me by the "nigger" and I was banned from the university and the lab where I was working on dna mapping, HIV initial cases, skin rejuvenation and a transplant drug for organs like penis, arms, and legs, eyes and ear drums. All the actors except for Morgan thought that I had lost myself in the character of Nurse Betty. Well, if I was to lose character I might not get it back. It happened once when I went to retrieve something or add something to an FBI vault and it's like John Douglas has to trap me into a conversation to ask questions but the questions are not real questions. They are more like, "where were you," this date and that date, not, "are you the sister of Sharon Tate?" none of the questions were about a crime. I thought he was trying to figure out a way to get a divorce and not pay alimony but he wasn't sure.....if he had the right wife? And, I lost Peggy Sue and I lost Nurse Betty and I am trying to find the right character. I do Sally Fields (who he hates...obviously) and slapped my hand across my mouth. I do Sandi Shaw, who he may have met during the making of a Sidney Poitier movie about a blind girl. I do France Gall, Tammy Wyanette, and I am frantic. So, I take time to do my prayers at a window while he is watching me. Prayer time on one's knees is a nun thing. It buys time...it buys time and I am going through all the characters and singers and composers I have ever used to run away from him and them and those, KKK, KGB, JW's and Royal hunters, German hunters and what have you. And, she came back. I got back into character.
And, the beauty of Nurse Betty is that Ryan O'Neil didn't know that I was Rene (Chasity was my understudy). And, Ryan would turn to Farah and say, "Iris won another Oscar." It was so upsetting to him. Me being a "nigger" and all?
No one wants to be a friend to a "nigger" not even a white negro. They don't want them as a sister nor a wife. Girlfriends in the form of mistresses that would work the streets for them they want that one. Well, I am not a negro and I am not a prostitute and I am not working the streets for anyone but Jesus.
I go on my way from one shock therapy to another, decades of shocks, decades of put downs and put ons,
For me to lose my cool three things are necessary. One, no sleep for a week to a month to a year. No food for a week and several months and no let up in a work schedule. I have taught myself to see the signs and I say to myself, "you are setting yourself up for a fall." Sleep, rest and eat. And, no matter how tough the situation I will endure without losing my patience.
There are people that lose their tempers every second of the day and we know of them in our family pool and network of friends. But, find someone like me that is beaten and berated continuously without confrontation, without saying a word and when the explosion comes and everyone runs and ducks they can't get over it. They spend a lifetime of licking each other bones and they didn't even have a mark on them. I don't get it. They, it seems, are allowed to berate, beat, kick, poison children, mull children, barbecue chicken like Kentucky Fried chicken, rape viciously and repeatedly over a forty to sixty year time period and if one person hits back watch out they will cry and howl in frustration. Why? Because, "you can't do that...you are a nigger."
Well, meet my brothers.
Birds of a feather fly together and too many of them set themselves on ABBA. I don't need a reason any more. I have several badges at one time or another. And, I don't have to do anything. I can sit and type and work and play. ABBA had a lot of friends and none of them are nuns except for one. What goes around comes around, eh?
It takes a lot for me to hit back but I never hit first. I never shoot first. I have the right by law to defend my body and my home. Don't cross the line.
